those with the biggest hearts are hurt the most.

     I've been praying/wanting for so long for that one friend that is just above the others. A best friend. I have such a broad span of friendships and relationships, and it's great! and I'm thankful for them all, really, I am.
     But ever since I moved to TN, I've hoped that God would give me someone. Someone who would want to text me and talk and hang out with me as much as I would them. Someone who could walk into my house and mine theirs and we'd just be like hey. Someone who helps me build my relationship with God, loves sports, and if we fight, we couldn't stay mad at each other for long. Some body who won't get tired or annoyed with me.
     In the past couple of years, I've learned so many things. It's extremely hard to try to come into somebody's life, when they already have established those (best) friends in the years before. And even at church, there's no one who really likes sports like i do (girl wise).
     I've thought that i've found that one friend, but it's ended up in a lot of heartache. Too young, or taken by someone else right when our friendship gets strong.
     I cannot tell you how many times tears have come. I'm pretty strong, but sometimes the strong can still break.
     So, when others hurt, I want to see them through it. Not to become their bestestestestest friend or whatever, but to let them know that someone is their for them when they think no one else is.
     It's hard though, because sometimes, it'd be nice for someone to be there for me, like I would be for them. Get me something to make me feel better w/o me even having to say anything. Check on me and encourage me. Cause (not to build myself up or anything) but, I definitely love doing that for others. Makes people keep their heads high and builds them up.
     As the quote says: " sometimes the girl who's been there for everyone else needs someone to be there for her." No one would really ever know this, except for the fact that I'm actually writing it out. (besides in the personal notes section on my itouch)
     I guess a way i kind of get over not having a best friend (yet) IS by listening to others. I don't mind, it makes me smile knowing that others trust me. I've been shot in the heart many times, but nothing that can't be healed.
Thanks.
p.s. I wouldn't trade the relationships I have right now for anything in the world. I have lost some friends (moving, growing apart, etc) BUT I've also gained some really really great friends. Ones that I love so much.
And I really appreciate when people say "I'm here for you" I don't think people actually get how much it means to me.

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