It's a battlefield out there.

Who would have thought that as soon as I got back from an awesome mission trip to Nicaragua, life would hit some big bumps in the road.
Yesterday afternoon (Wednesday) my mom informed me that Tuesday was full of tragedy.
SOMEWHERE mutual friend of ours' husband took his own life Monday night. The weird part is, he was supposed to be with us on our trip to Nicaragua, but pulled out last minute. He's a local doctor here in town. So, that was hard to take. And then, my aunt and uncle's old neighbors (before my a&u moved) are really close family friends. We always had the best parties when we'd visit. Cause they had the pool and my aunt and uncle had the food and decked out garage. Well, come to find out, Margaret, the wife, hydroplaned Tuesday and got hit by a truck. And now she's no longer with us. Extremely sad day.
Well, today, I was eating an afternoon snack at home and my mom tells me of all that's going on with Micah. Micah can be frustrating a lot of the time.. But I love him so much. And today I found out that someone put a note in his locker that said "say goodbye to your life."
CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT!!!?!?!?!?!??!?!. I wanted to blow some kid's head off right then and there. I'm so upset over that! You do not threaten my brother! It makes me want to cry.
I can be an intense person, but I don't ever hardly get truly angry. So when I talk about it and the heat rises that quickly, you know I'm hot. So, I got my iPod, my basketball, and went and dribbled for like an hour. To try and cool off. I was texting Meredith and praying that the Lord would give me peace and self control.
One thing in Nicaragua what was said every day. And multiple time a day was "our world is a battlefield and we're it's warriors. As believers. We're it's warriors." and it's really stuck. People can be so cruel. And it hurts. Even though it's not toward me. It's toward people I care about.
So, Lord keep me calm,
Thanks.

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