The Obedient Step is....... ?

     Have you ever been between a rock and a hard place? I feel as though many have been. Have you ever been between a rock and a hard place with a decision you had to make that alters the course of your life? yeah.. that's where I find myself today. Let's unpack this a little.

   I am at, what I would like to call, a crossroads in my life (again). I have the opportunity to say yes to something that I have been selected for even though I haven't been placed exactly where I wanted to be placed. Accepting this offer would mean that what I thought was going to happen/how I have set up my future probably won't happen. Now you could be sitting there reading this like "well Alex, sounds like the Lord is directing you in His ways and not your own...so...." And that may very well be true, I have definitely thought about that because for the past forever but especially the past 3-4 months, I have been praying that I would take the most obedient step He would have me take. I keep saying "Put me where I will best glorify You." 

  Here's the kicker, I have another place. It makes way more sense financially, it may offer me the program I want to be in, and it all sounds so good/would be great experience.. however, I won't hear from them officially until March and they could very well end up saying no to me. So, and this may be a short post, but here is where I am at the moment...

   I don't feel like I am being impatient or jumping on the first available offer but I am trying to discern, as I said before, the most obedient step. Within that, I am asking, "Lord, are you re-directing my plans internally but pointing me in the same direction externally because You know something I don't? Or are you closing a door because You know something I don't." HA. You see where the slight frustration might be? 

    In no way do I feel confused, just kind of stumped. Within the same vein, I am also asking, "Lord, is the most obedient step the one where I give up what I have planned and as my dad texted me this morning saying "it may not be the perfect move but the most obedient one. I will follow up with that and say, it may not be the perfect move “in YOUR plans”, but if God is leading, it is HIS perfect move for your life. Now comes your part of Trust and Obedience."? (Back to me) Or is the most obedient step the one where I say no to something good because He has something better? *queue Abraham, Hagar, Ishmael, Sarah, and Isaac*

    So, I will keep you all updated with what happens. I feel like this was less of an eloquently worded blog post and more of a pieced together thought train but nonetheless, if you would, please lift me up in prayer as I spend these next few days "figuring some stuff out".

   

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