Ash & Evergreens

   Am I enough? Am I good enough? Am I smart enough? Am I funny enough? Am I athletic enough? Am I pretty/handsome enough? Am. I.....enough?      These are questions (or variations of) that everyone has asked themselves at some point. Maybe it's everyday or maybe it's every once in a while but we struggle with this idea of "enough-ness".    We get passed over for a job because we aren't experienced enough. We get passed over by a guy or girl because we feel we aren't pretty/handsome enough. We get passed over by family because we feel like we aren't good enough. We get passed over by coaches or instructors because we aren't talented enough. We get passed over by friendships/relationships because there's something better and we aren't enough. This is the idea of "Enoughness". If only we were this, that, or the other THEN we would be enough for that person or for that job or that team or that role.      Throughout my life, this idea ...

     I'm doing my 2019 reflection here in November because a year ago is really when my world changed forever. Over the next few minutes, I'm going to go through a list of the top 7 things I learned/experienced in 2019 and I hope that they're an encouragement, a challenge, and a lens into my life over the past year. It's been quite the year and the Lord has faithfully challenged and grown me and though some of the circumstances haven't been great, the changes have been. So here we go. 1. Heartache. 2019 started out very sad and tumultuous. There was so much going on inside of me. There was anger and hurt and sadness and no sense of belonging. My first love and I had broken up a couple months prior to the new year and there was zero communication (obviously) and a lot of heartache/questions. Not only was my heart broken but I was trying to move back up to Chicago, because that's where I felt the Lord was still calling me to be. Nothing was working out though ...