Senior Thoughts
Today I come with senior thoughts. I am in my last semester as a senior and this year has been both beautiful and difficult at the same time.
1. Goodbye to the New: When I was a freshman and sophomore, one of my dearest friends was an upper class-man and she would say "you'd be surprised at how many new friends you can make even in your last year". I didn't know that I would get to experience that but I have. I have made new friends that I will truly be sad to leave. I have made friends that listen and love and search for the Lord and what better community is there than that? I find myself asking the Lord sometimes why he gave me particular friendships in my last semester of college- you know, the ones that are really dear but you actually only ever get to scratch the surface.
2. Goodbye to the Old: I am excited for the next chapter in my life. I am excited for what's to come and what I am going to do and who I'm going to meet. I hear both things about being a "real adult". I hear that it's awesome and I hear that it's not all it's cracked up to be. But I am ready to move into that stage of life and I am ready to apply what I've learned and run with it.
3. Graduating single: Throughout my college career (and currently), I never went on a single date. Throughout my time that's been a mental battle at points. The questions of not being "good enough" have swirled around in my head on different occasions. But as I go into my last couple of months, I do not feel unworthy or inadequate.. but rather, I feel like I love my Savior and have a peace in my heart that my man will come one day. I graduate in wholeness and satisfaction, no matter how many people are getting engaged around me.
4. No Bitterness: They say that going to a bible school can sometimes burn you out. There have been times where I have been overwhelmed by aaaaaaall my bible classes and conferences and 3 chapels a week. But now 1/3 of the way finished with my final semester and I just feel grateful. I am grateful for what I've learned and the challenges I have faced. I get to leave Moody feeling accomplished and thankful that the small fire inside of me has not been put out.
5. An ability to face trials: Trials are something I am not unaccustomed to. Starting 3 semesters ago, m major was taken away (I will still graduate with it). Then everything felt like it came crumbling down right before thanksgiving 2017 and it still feels like we are trying to come to the surface for air but just can't quite make it yet, as a school. Literal canon balls are coming at us from all sides and all directions and it's not shock that satan is trying to rip this school apart from the inside out.. because it is a place that has turned students into godly leaders for years and years. He wants us to fail, but in the midst of pain and confusion, I get to remember that I have been built upon a solid rock that will stand. Throughout these trials, I have learned to stand and face with care rather than turn and hide with fear and neutrality.
6. Stay Tuned...
1. Goodbye to the New: When I was a freshman and sophomore, one of my dearest friends was an upper class-man and she would say "you'd be surprised at how many new friends you can make even in your last year". I didn't know that I would get to experience that but I have. I have made new friends that I will truly be sad to leave. I have made friends that listen and love and search for the Lord and what better community is there than that? I find myself asking the Lord sometimes why he gave me particular friendships in my last semester of college- you know, the ones that are really dear but you actually only ever get to scratch the surface.
2. Goodbye to the Old: I am excited for the next chapter in my life. I am excited for what's to come and what I am going to do and who I'm going to meet. I hear both things about being a "real adult". I hear that it's awesome and I hear that it's not all it's cracked up to be. But I am ready to move into that stage of life and I am ready to apply what I've learned and run with it.
3. Graduating single: Throughout my college career (and currently), I never went on a single date. Throughout my time that's been a mental battle at points. The questions of not being "good enough" have swirled around in my head on different occasions. But as I go into my last couple of months, I do not feel unworthy or inadequate.. but rather, I feel like I love my Savior and have a peace in my heart that my man will come one day. I graduate in wholeness and satisfaction, no matter how many people are getting engaged around me.
4. No Bitterness: They say that going to a bible school can sometimes burn you out. There have been times where I have been overwhelmed by aaaaaaall my bible classes and conferences and 3 chapels a week. But now 1/3 of the way finished with my final semester and I just feel grateful. I am grateful for what I've learned and the challenges I have faced. I get to leave Moody feeling accomplished and thankful that the small fire inside of me has not been put out.
5. An ability to face trials: Trials are something I am not unaccustomed to. Starting 3 semesters ago, m major was taken away (I will still graduate with it). Then everything felt like it came crumbling down right before thanksgiving 2017 and it still feels like we are trying to come to the surface for air but just can't quite make it yet, as a school. Literal canon balls are coming at us from all sides and all directions and it's not shock that satan is trying to rip this school apart from the inside out.. because it is a place that has turned students into godly leaders for years and years. He wants us to fail, but in the midst of pain and confusion, I get to remember that I have been built upon a solid rock that will stand. Throughout these trials, I have learned to stand and face with care rather than turn and hide with fear and neutrality.
6. Stay Tuned...
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