"Get off your Rusty Dusty and step on it."



   God has a very specific and perfectly timed way of revamping, renewing, reconnecting, retraining, replenishing, restoring, repairing, and refocusing our walks with him. That is what he did for me this past weekend. I am at a lull in my walk. I feel like there are days when I am excited to learn something new or something I've heard a hundred times about the Lord. But I feel the days of not wanting to hear or not being excited to hear have recently outnumbered those days of want. That is a tough place to be.
      It is a place where pride begins to creep into my heart and possess my thoughts, reactions, and emotions. It whispers, "you've heard this story a thousand times. You have to go to another chapel and/or listen to another speaker and/or be apart of something that you've done time and time again." It says, "you know it all. You've heard so much of it. Your faith is unquestioning. You are strong." And it screams, "Become complacent! You don't need to grow! You don't need to listen to this story again or sing this song that you've heard a hundred times! You don't need to read that verse again! You don't need to ask questions or listen to people more mature in their faith!!"
 
That is what pride says.

But it is wrong. Ups and downs are apart of faith. They are apart being human and trying to figure out life. The highs and the lows and the lulls in between are beautiful. They are what make us think, redefine, and reevaluate where we are and why we worship God.

 I got the privilege of attending Passion Conference in Atlanta, GA this past weekend and I was "ehh" about going. I knew I needed it but I didn't really feel like hearing time and again about what Christ did on the cross and that it is okay to be broken. But that was not what God was telling me over the weekend. He told that to many many hearts..
   
   But he told me   "You are mine." He told me, "There are others who are thrilled about what I did on the cross. There are others who cheer after every song. There are others who are learning to work through broken situations. There are others who have to define their faith for the first time... You know those things and have been excited about those things before, but this time, You are here to be refilled. You are here to watch others fall more in love with Me. And you are here to be excited with them and love them and not judge and listen to what others have to say and rejoice when it clicks for others. From that I will restore your soul. From that I will refocus your heart. From that I will re-purpose your walk. Trust in Me."

     He beautifully is restoring my soul.

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