shaken foundations

this title may sound odd and you may be wondering what it has to do with anything. But it is exactly what it means. Over the past month a lot has happened and in the end, a road less traveled on...forked. It amazes me how good things can split over blown out of proportion circumstances. So, with that, the foundations of my school have been shaken. Another classical (Christian) school is being put together by people who are ready for change at my school. Except, they don't really want change and so they're forming this new school to try and savor the old way of doing things. Notice that there was no trace of a negative tone or connotation in my describing some of the reasons for the new school. My school is getting ready to change and grow and hopefully accumulate more (to the standard) people that pca already embodies, for the most part haha. Now, I am sorry that I cannot make a 36 on my ACT or a 1240 on my SAT. I'm sorry that I cannot make straight A's all the time on my report card or maintain a 4.0 GPA. But I offer something so much more to the table. God hasn't wired my brain to be the PERFECT academic student, but He has wired me to be a servant for Him and to share that with other people. At PCA, I have been blessed to learn under the christian and classical model. Neither of those things are changing, even when the physical school is. If technology can't keep updating with this day and age, so many things would be lost by how our society grows. If Providence doesn't modify ever so slightly to keep up with the growth of murfreesboro, we're going to be thrown under the wheels of an 18-wheeler. I'm not saying keeping up with the ways of sin and wolrdliness. But getting bigger in order to shine a light into the darkening world. Bring in other "pca ready" kids and continue the training/mission field that will better prepare us for a life time of learning. I've heard both sides. I know the majority of the arguments and see most of the heart of both sides. However, I still take pride in my school, so this is my opinion :)
      The fork in the road absolutely breaks my heart. Not only for my friends who have been whisked off, but for teachers who have left, that I love ever so dearly. Our friendship ties won't break, but they have been severed. Each time I hear about another person leaving, a small piece of me leaves too. But as one of my good adult friends/teacher's has said, "I have peace sweet girl. it's going to be okay" Do you have any idea how hard it is to have peace in a time where you feel as though everyone you know is being ripped apart?? Senior year!
     "They" (both sides) say that there are no hard feelings. But let's call it for what it is.... it's not that easy to split and spread poison and say, "There's no hard feelings" I see through that and I'm 17. The Christian side of me wants the best for everyone and to be a bridge between the schools. But the human side of me is hurt and never wants to speak the name of the 'new school.'
     This year, our foundations have been shaken. Not only physically because we're rebuilding but emotionally, spiritually, and mentally (to the people). But the house upon the rocks will not fall and God has founded, funded, and will continue to watch over Providence, His school.
For His glory