Ash & Evergreens

"Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound. That saved a wretch, like me. I once was lost, but now I'm found. Was blind, but now I see." Many people have hear this song. Maybe even several times. I've even heard this song, many many times. But, last night when I was listening to my Sidewalk Prophets pandora station, Chris Tomlin's beautiful rendition of it came on and this spirit of awe and freedom welled up inside of me. I just felt like I could worship God forever and just wanted to keep listening to what all of these christian artists had to sing.      My excitement last night was beyond words because I had a rekindled fire for my Savior and was unashamed. Sometimes in life, we shut down. We feel burned out or we just don't have enough time to spend time with God or in His word. Christians in society today are becoming lethargic. There are hardly any people willing to share their faith and the ones who are are in other countries.       Yesterda...

     I don't know what it is. But like in everyone's life, things arent perfect by far. Mistakes are made, wounds are opened, struggles actually are real, communication is limited, different worldviews and cultures collide, hearts feel shattered.      I cannot express to you why my heart feels these things. Life is different this year. We have an exhcange student with us this year and she's a good kid with a good heart. But I thought we'd be more alike and I appreciate she's a kind German and that she's her own person, but it isn't what I expected. Somedays we're good and some days I just want to shut her and many others out. It's difficult to see that this is a training field for something bigger one day. And I don't want to seem heretical when this little German is witnessing true christianity and christians for the first time.      I am not always happy...in fact, I am rarely happy. My life is changing and I have a hard ti...